Query: What is Kundalini Awakening? How do we live our daily life in this illusionary world.
Why is man and woman made. Why are we born in ignorance. Why the senses if
we are to control them to acheive Spiritual growth? As per scriptures man alone is permitted to acheive Self
Realization. Are women not permitted to realize self?|
While proceeding on the path of Self Realization ... one need to
practice Celibacy for a continuous period of 12 years ... it can be more not less. This helps one retain all
the energy within the self so that instead of taking the staircase of spiritual life we can jump the lift
(the elevator) and go straight up. Going up the lift is what we know as awakening of the kundalini ... the
inherent dominant force present in every human being.
While the kundalini is being awakened ... we come across various
experiences ranging from God Almighty trying to distract us from realizing the self. Were it not so ... then
why would have God Almighty made such a long journey of 8.4 million manifestations (a total cosmic journey of
96.4 million years) for atman the soul within to get liberated.
God Almighty desires one to pass through all the manifestations before
one realizes god. We need to live as an amoeba (the first manifestation), then an insect, a tree, an animal
and finally evolving into a human being. The journey is long and whoever tries to cut it short ... there are
many distractions on the way.
Literally God tries to bewitch us by providing assurance of material
comforts and what not. Most of the people succumb to these pressures ... some fall for the Siddhis (manifest
powers) practicing which one can gain material comforts and fame. Practically, whatever power we may desire
God is willing to give provided we get distracted from the goal ... the goal of realizing the
I shall narrate the example of sage Vishwamitra who practiced austerities
to its climax. He was to have Realized God but it so happened that while walking through the jungle (deep
forests) he came across the sight of a very fair Lady having bath in a very sensuous environment. It was all
a play of God to distract sage Vishwamitra from his path of gaining Self Realization ... Enlightenment! He
fell for it ... he could not anticipate what God had in store for him.
He lost almost 10 years of his life ... he was much ahead of sage
Vashistha in practicing austerities but he had to accept finally the supremacy of sage Vashistha who was of a
very strong character. His practice of Celibacy having failed ... the whole process had to be repeated
Our goal of life has to be absolutely clear ... lest we repent in the
end. Acharya Rajneesh aka Osho could not gain Self Realization in this life because he committed one single
mistake ... the mistake of practicing free sex. He advocated in the end part of his life that having free sex
induces one towards the ultimate goal of life ... Self Realization!
He was totally wrong ... we cannot negotiate with practicing Celibacy for
a continuous period of 12 years. Only then can we hope for gaining Self Realization. We need to preserve our
energies ... for reaching the top floor (the 8.4 millionth manifestation ... the last leg of cosmic life) we
have to take the lift of spiritual life ... Having reached this stage we have nowhere else to go than achieve
Acharya Rajneesh Osho was wrong to the extent that even USA did not
except his practices in the end. He was turned out of the country (rather thrown out) ... he had nowhere else
to go for every country in the world rejected him ... it was only after serious deLiberations that his home
country ... the beloved India accepted him back ... what a disgrace!
One mistake cost him heavily ... the engine of his spiritual life
derailed at 99° ... he failed to realize that the last one per cent was very important for the engine of his
spiritual life to develop steam (steam practically generates at hundred degrees centigrade) ... only then can
one Realize God in the present life!
The experiences one meets with while experiencing the awakening of the
kundalini are sometimes really frightening ... they carry so much force that a normal human being gets scared
... for none has ever come across so much power which can be made available to a human being (the normal
mortal) by the grace of God. In the physical manifested life we need the medium of money to purchase power.
and when we have power ... our senses provoke us all the time display the power ... power of ill-gotten
On the contrary, in the Spiritual realm ... Lord Krishna (an Avatar) had
the ultimate power in form of Sudarshan chakra but he rarely used it ... for we are not supposed to nor
expected to display our supremacy and the might. There is nothing to be feared of ... we have to boldly face
all the circumstances and get ahead in life. While proceeding on the path of Self Realization I was tempted
with so many vital gifts of life that it is easy for many to get swayed from the path.
I had only one goal ... to come across God face-to-face. I shall not
accept anything less. It was a really difficult time of my life ... why, because there was none to guide me
... I never had a Guru in my life. I had absolute faith in God Almighty ... I won in the end.
To understand process of Karma in totality we need to understand that it
is Karma ... and only Karma that needs to be practiced with sincerity without which our atman the soul within
cannot get purified ... liberated from the cycle of birth and death. As is the case with mining one KG of
silver out of a lump of hundred KG of silver ore ... every atman the soul within has to pass through 8.4
million manifestations before it can clear of with the 99% impurities carried within.
If we look at the process of mining or for that matter any other process of purification ... we observe that the
whole lump of silver ore is sometimes dipped in water (the period when every human being experiences happiness).
Comes a stage when the balance silver ore is put in a furnace ... and burnt to the required temperatures ... both
processes removing a part of impurities (this is the period when a human being suffers agony).
It is only through the process of suffering and happiness (getting dipped
in water and put through the furnace that we can achieve the purity within the silver ore ... without these
two essentials ingredients of suffering and happiness ... no human being can ever achieve the stage of Self
Realization ... Salvation Moksha ... we have to burn the dross within ... there is no other alternative ...
we do experience happiness at various times but to gloat over the fact that we shall continue to experience
only happiness ever after shall never happen.
The power of Satan is minus hundred ... almost opposite to the power of
God, which is plus hundred. As we face the sufferings ... so shall we experience the happiness? Vice versa as
we experience the happiness so shall we also face sufferings.
In the cosmic system everything has two facets ... we have day ... we also have a night. We have fire ... we also
have water. All are equally opposite to each other ... and complement each other. None can survive without the
other. Without sufferings ... happiness would not have any meaning. It is only when we suffer do we realize the
importance of happiness. If we have Swarga Heaven ... we also have hell. It is our Karma, which lands us either in
Swarga Heaven or Naraka hell.
Suffering and happiness are two sides of the same coin ... for one the
glass is half empty (the materialistic tendencies taking hold) for the other (a Spiritual man) ... the glass
is half full ... he is already contented many times with the grace of God ... he does not desire more ...
rather he has killed the desire within ... having controlled his senses and the mind ... the Spiritual man
has transgressed the mortal domain. For him materialistic values have no meaning.
Happiness and suffering in life can never be compared. A beggar who has
not eaten for many days will eye the spare food as a luxury ... for us it was only meant for the dog on the
street. Bhagavad Gita never stipulates that we can Realize God without burning the dross within ... we have
to hundred percent absolve ourselves totally from the bindings of Karma before we can ever think of realizing
God within this life.
Take the case of Gautama Buddha who left the palace in search of the
absolute knowledge ... he left in the night when his wife and the child were asleep ... he left the palace
without having burnt his Karma ... he went to the deep jungles in search of God ... he could not find one ...
after toiling for a long period of time he returned to the city for the guidance of a Guru ... which he could
never find. He tried his very best.
He tried both the methods ... the seclusion of the jungles ... and also
the community life ... he understood everything in the end. He finally advocated the middle path ... neither
leaving the family and venturing into the jungles can one Realize God ... nor while living in the family ...
he advised everyone to follow the middle path. He had to primarily burn out his Karma by practicing
austerities he later learnt in life while living in the community. The sooner he absolved himself of all the
Karma ... he Realize God.
Gautama Buddha Realized God at the end part of his life ... while he was
nearing 81. He felt so happy that he immediately left the mortal frame, which had suffered for long. This is
not an isolated case. Lord
Mahavira, Jesus Christ and Prophet Mohammed... all faced different types of experiences yet the
goal for all of them was always the same. The paths can be different but destination always remains the
We need to understand the system in its totality lest we shall fail in our Spiritual efforts. In the system of God
there are no sufferings ... happiness has no meaning for everything is energy ... it is only the bodily form which
experiences the sufferings and the happiness. In the domain of God ... the life of a human being has no meaning ...
it is the world of Atmans souls that is governing ... and every atman soul is nothing else but pure
Living in this world either we can live happily fulfilling our base
desires, the wanton desires ... lest we have to establish a control over the senses and the mind if we are to
proceed higher up on the Spiritual plane. Ignorance and illusion is part of life ... it is inherent in the
99% impurities of life ... we have to cut the shackles of the Karma and come out of it to experience absolute
bliss ... the stage of Nirvikalpa Samadhi ... where there is nothing else but face-to-face dialogue with God
Reaching the stage of Nirvikalpa Samadhi is like having covered 99% of
the distance ... the balance 1% still can be achieved with the grace of God.
It is an absolute truth that for being able to realize self one is
required to be born a man ... in the total history of mankind only two women have Realized God ... it is the
conviction ... the faith in the Lord ... that shall win you the day. Whatever be the inclination or the
desire ... a woman proceeding on the path of absolute Spirituality ... if she comes across a child crying on
the way ... do you expect of her to look the other way. It is just not possible ... her Womanhood comes in
the way ... the inherent feeling of motherhood blocks a woman realizing God.
God has made the system like that ... if everyone starts to Realize God
then who would serve food to the people on the path to Realization ... it would so happen that the child is
getting ready for school and the mother says I am meditating for I have to Realize God in the present life.
It is just not possible for a lady to make an excuse ... the inborn inherent tendency of serving others comes
in the way of her realizing God as a woman.
Gargi was one woman who did not marry in life ... she faced all the
extremities of life that can be expected of a lonely women ... she had only one goal of life ... to learn of
the absolute truth in the present life. One day it so happened that a superior priest of that era Mandan
Mishra challenged her on the topic of sex. He probably thought that in the midst of thousands of priests and
pundits it would be extremely difficult for women to discuss on a forbidden topic ... he failed to realize
that Gargi was a woman of conviction.
In the grueling dialogues that followed ... Mandan Mishra realized the gravity ... but he was too late ... he not
only failed miserably to cross examine Gargi on the issue of sex ... for him sex was a taboo ... but for Gargi ...
sex was only meant for procreation ... it had no other purpose ... for a person with a Spiritual goal of life the
differentiation between a man and a woman did not exist. She countered that there is only one man, one Karta
(creator) in whole Cosmos and that is God Almighty ... according to her it is only God Almighty who can create
something out of nothing.
If a man cannot do so then in terms of Spirituality all are women. It was
true for none in this world can create out of nothing even the smallest pebble. Mandan Mishra admitted his
fault. The balance of his life as per the terms and conditions of the duel he was to have spent as a slave of
Gargi but as Gargi was a woman of conviction ... she forgave Mandan Mishra saving him from disgrace. The
Gargi College in New Delhi, India is built in her remembrance.
Another was Maitreyi, the wife of Sage Jnanavalakya. Sage Jnanavalakya
had two wives ... one had materialistic inclinations and Maitreyi was more inclined towards Spiritual values
... she wanted to follow the path her husband was following. It so happened that having spent a considerable
time in the community Sage Jnanavalakya announced that he should be making a move for the jungles for the
balance of his life.
Maitreyi got disturbed and she asked for permission to accompany her husband. Sage Jnanavalakya kept mum on the
issue. Subsequently he called for both the wives and split his wealth equally amongst them both. The one inclined
towards materialistic tendencies still had wanton desires for more. Sage Jnanavalakya could easily make out from
Maitreyi was an intelligent woman. She put up a question to Sage
Jnanavalakya that all the wealth he is leaving for her ... would it result in her attaining the absolute
knowledge. Sage Jnanavalakya who inherently understood the meaning of Maitreyi knew beforehand what lay in
store for him ... he was just passing time. After persistent questioning ... Sage Jnanavalakya succumbed to
the pressures of Maitreyi and agreed to take her along. Maitreyi had succeeded in her determination ... she
called for the other wife and happily gave her the balance wealth.
It was all joy for the wife with materialistic inclinations ... no one
was at loss! Maitreyi wanted the knowledge of the absolute ... she knew it was only possible through the
grace of God and his husband. She was after it ... it was only her will power that she succeeded in her
attempt. In the company of Sage Jnanavalakya Maitreyi ultimately gained Realization. The Maitreyi College in
New Delhi is reminiscent of the Sage Jnanavalakya and his times. It continuously reminds us that Self
Realization for a woman is not only possible ... but also comparatively a very difficult path to
In my own personal life ... while I was nearing the ultimate goal of my life ... God asked of me
which path I desired to follow ... the path of Mahavira or the Buddha. He also explained the merits and
demerits of the same. Buddha gained enlightenment at 81 years of age ... he had suffered so much that he did
not want to continue further and left his mortal frame shortly after Self Realization.
In the case of Mahavira ... he gained Self Realization at the age of 42. He did not want to
leave immediately ... he wanted to disseminate back to the community what he had learnt with the grace of
God. He spent 30 years after gaining enlightenment ... preaching to the world community the inherent meaning
of the sacred Scriptures ... the true essence of life! He left his mortal frame at the age of 72.
I chose the path taken by Mahavira. I also did not leave the mortal frame in 1993. Had I wanted
to do so ... I could take a samadhi within three hours. I shall continue in my efforts to give back to the
community what I have gained with the blessings of God. Only after a certain period of time that I shall
leave the mortal frame as per my own wish.
Having gained Self Realization ... death of a body carries no meaning for me ... I am but a pure
cluster of energy ... a god realized soul in essence! I have reached the Mount Everest of my cosmic life ... I have
nowhere else to go. The day I feel my work is completed I shall bid goodbye.
God be with you.
Always there to clarify your queries ( send your query),
Vijay Kumar "Atma Jnani" ... The Man who Realized God in 1993!
Full text of query: I have heard of people having problems when their kundalini instead of
passing through the sushumna passes through the ida or pingala and are confronted with energies that can
cause hallucinations or other fearful experiences. Why does this happen and is it normal? Is any kind of
you told me that I should burn my Karma and then maybe seek the Spiritual
path. But in the gita it says that a man can burn out all his Karma if he seeks the path of god, no matter he
completes his reponsibilities in this world. Everthing that we do in our normal lives are due to an illusion
that man has been condition to beleive since time immorial.
Why I ask this is, now all my aqauintances, are living life still trying
to figure out why they go through all the troubles that they go through in their journey of life, while
trying to make money, or being in love, or taking care of family or what ever. It is because they are
ignorant about the larger life force that they are part of.
But since I know that the ego is actually nothing and that it is the
spirit which is a part of everything, even the food before I eat it is already a part of me, everything that
I am looking at right now is only part of the physical world, but there is a whole other dimension out there
which I have not explored.
Being in the physical world only pulls me down toward my lower impluses
and I feel all the unwanted emotions which I dont need to if I left this world. Then how do I stay here in
this physical world knowing that it is all an illusion anyway and keep doing the regular things that I do
when I feel like I am playing a stupid game. Shouldn't a Human Beings purpose in life be to realize god and
rise above the ignorance and illusion?
Why is man and woman made and why are they born in ignorance and why are
they given all the senses, and then required to control the senses to acheive Spiritual growth? Why is it
that in all the scriptures that only the man is required to go to the jungles and acheive Self Realization
while the woman is supposed to be at home?
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